tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-70519202012-01-23T20:43:39.733-05:00All About Being Good to my Heartsj-the-infamoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01765972182815747061noreply@blogger.comBlogger3331100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7051920.post-1979256898188704852012-01-23T20:42:00.001-05:002012-01-23T20:42:28.783-05:00

...cuz I am trying not to give credence to Broken. Relationships. Last time I was in one, this song and video struck me.  I adored it.  The idea of a secret.  HA!  That joke was on me.  Anyhoo, I loved the intimacy present in this video.  You could tell that she loved that man, and those four kids they have was beside the fact.  That he loved her, that was no secret. "Look at me, I'm one of

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My vision for being good to my heart... To which I ... surrender. Hello 2012! Song of the Day: "Pieces of Me" by Ledisi

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The past has had enough of my tears, time, and attention.  I think I know from whence I came.  Call the journey an overall blessing, regardless of how my feelings have ebbed and flowed.  I'm ready to be good to my heart, and that calls for a forward-focus. I'm a couple years from another milestone birthday and I've vision-boarded a life of intimacy, mischief, travel, balance, health, investment,

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Thinking back to where I was two years ago -- longing to be overseas. Willing myself to be abroad, away. Even finding myself on a boat in the middle of the ocean, no less, at the stroke of the new year.Accolades in my profession. Success in leadership roles. Relinquishing that for more of me, though. Learning to stand back and let others lead, or did I just let laziness and procrastination

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I keep having revelations....He was not right for meHe was not good for meHe was not good to me.So I certainly need to quit with the tearful memories. I knew all of this upfront. I let him lie to me for over a year. Lies snowball, yanno. I never imagined his lie would be so"BIG" but the lie I told myself about us is the BIGGEST of all.And I am so embarrassed about that! That is the source of

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This month has been a midsummer's NIGHTMARE, from start to finish. The heartbreaking loss of love, the death of family, the passing of friends, illnesses taking the life out of loved ones, and relationships crumbling all around me. It's more than enough to make a sista cry. Lord, please hear my call...I need your healing. I want my joy back...and I want joy for those that I love, and who

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Thank YOU, for my Colored Girls moment today...."My love is TOO DIVINE to have it thrown back on my face!"...and I am moving to the end of my own rainbow.Here's the thing though --I had checked out already. I was done. I had written the "Dear Pat" letter. Got the courage to call him. Didn't break it to him then though, but invited him to meet me, for it's mature to do this face-to-face, right

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...when they fall in the shower. It's almost like water begets more water(works.)It's a thought. Thankfully, the one that will curb my ever-rising water bill this summer! Teardrops on the pages of a journal will cost me less, emotionally, as well as financially. It's been over 15 years since I last kept a "diary." My heart pleads with me to revisit, for the catharsis is much needed. I trust

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Taking time...Finally. Perhaps I am starting to wake up, open my eyes, and take some steps. Just a bit of inspiration, first.Jilly from Philly released her latest today, "Light of the Sun" and I've taken up NPRs First Listen for a spin. Gonna hear where her words and sounds take me this evening.Cocktail in hand, here we go...T R A C K L I S T I N G01. Blessed || The things I love and have, and

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It started with a kiss...That it did! And, as I recall, there wasn't much passion present. It was rather abrupt, actually. He approached me, and without hesitation, made my mouth his.For a few brief seconds, I tasted his tongue. Felt his lips. I remember them being soft. I wrote then that they were not chapped! LOL When I re-read my diary, shock, more than anything, is the emotion that comes

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I find myselftongue-tiedspeechlessat a loss for wordsto describe where I am / how I am / who I am at this milestone. I have MUCH to express, yet find difficulty in verbalizing the emotions.Love.....is such a life-changing emotion, notion.....and I carry it in my heartand I wear it on my face....i smile so hard my dimples hurt, i swearand I demonstrate it with my behavior, my actionsand I

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Ok, so I'll bite and take the Challenge. Especially since Dentyne has informed me that the average person spends 20,000 minutes kissing, and I can't even recall the last time I was passionately kissed [insert sad face]Dear YOU:I'm accepting ESSENCE Magazine's Summer Dating Challenge to ask people I trust -- my relatives, my colleagues, and my friends -- to arrange a blind date for me with a

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I just got the news, that my dear friend, Lillian, had passed.Heartbroken doesn't adequately describe how I feel. She is gone much too soon, and I miss her terribly.Lillian's presence greatly colored my first year living in Atlanta. She hired me for my first job in this career transition and we quickly became more than colleagues. We became friends. I will forever cherish our fun memories. She

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...that it has been 2 years and I still, really, haven't forgiven myself, nor him, really for the nonsense that was. I can say all day that I'm past that. Moved on. Forgotten it, and him, but that isn't really the truth. But I damn sure what it to be, because I am SO desiring whatever is next. Love. Life. Legendary stuff. The highs. The lows. All of it wrapped up in the relationship of my

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I'd forgotten my password.It'd been a while since I last logged in to that particular job portal. Granted, I wasn't using it for personal gain; rather, I wanted to find more information about a position for a student. So, after requesting a password reminder, I checked that ol' "business" email account, and WHOA....738 messages!! Geesh....and I got sidetracked clicking DELETE, DELETE,

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101 Things in 1001 Days - Part DeuxTarget Start Date: December 6, 2009 (Age 36)End Date: September 2, 2012 (Age 38)Go to the Texas State Fair to try a variety of Fried foods (Coke, Butter, Snickers, etc.) Done in OC AUGUST 2011Go to the NEW Texas Stadium to watch my Dallas Cowboys play a game!Get another passport stamp! DONE JULY 2011Go on a cruise DONE JANUARY 2010 Finish my landscaping

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From my weekend....Friday ~ You may have thought your need to retreat was just a passing notion, but today you're motivated to make it happen. It might be as simple as taking a walk by yourself or making a phone call to graciously bow out of a social engagement. Worrying about the consequences of your self-imposed isolation can turn your decision into a difficult one, but once it's made you'll

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I saw this on PostSecret and saved it. It spoke to my state of mind about dating some 2 years ago. Being invisible in this city of millions. No one seeking me.But today, I found it, for it speaks to that state of being invisible. Some days I wonder -- if something happened to me, and I was gone tomorrow, would anybody miss me?Death has been SO prevalent this year and while I've kept it together

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I swear this is the summer of snippets. Can't get a full-on blog thought out for the life of me. Maybe in the fall, but in the meantime, here's what's on MY mind:"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because you had the experience." Quote from a mother character in E.Lynn's final book. Resonates with me deeply this year. Especially since I had a heart-to-heart with my best friend across the

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I've found myself REPEATING that phrase this summer. It's painful to count the number of deaths, public and private, that I've learned about.The tragic...The unexpected...The expected, if you will.The latest (knock on wood) surely took me by surprise (again). I remember meeting E. Lynn back in the 90s at Vertigo Books, when it was in Dupont Circle. I had copies of his latest book in hand for his

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- to be completed- before the end of the month- promise!It all started with ice cream and trains...and ended with rainier cherries and rug burns. The "..." won't be revisionist history, nor is it the stuff of novel(as), but it should be documented...::More to Come::..Song of the Day: "Everybody's Somebody's Fool" by Etta James

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That Chrisette Michelle version allowed for one final Jill Scott version and I'm left with scars!!"Watching,Watching as he took the holder off his shoulderFire in his eyes, hands getting bolderQuiet, quietGrowing excitedDug him for his bank account, but really forhis privateDamn about a mindsetReally wasn't into thatNeeded me some pleasing, Mr Perfect looking real fatLaidback was his foreplayAll

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him a positive post. That much is true. So what if he's following me on Twitter. I'm not protecting my Tweets for nobody. Never have I hidden my thoughts. But, for all that he may perceive as negative, I'm in a grown state of mind, and he needs to see that there are things that I love about him, too....Always a day late, and dollar short, though......::More to Come::..

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In the end, it wasn't as painful as I thought.But finito, it is....por fin!!We wish each other well. We go our separate ways. God's blessings are in store....and that makes me smile, even when my heart is breaking.....Song of the Day: "Yesterday" by Shanice

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I am thankful for such a beautiful day today. I got my "iPraise" on in the Park today!I am feeling more confident about changing my mind. I have tolerated less than I deserve for entirely too long and it's past time for me to put my desires and needs FIRST, for a change. Even if that means possibly hurting another's feelings. I read my horoscope for the day and it resonated deeply:"You want

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Friday night's agenda:Birthday party @Taboo2Bachelorette Party with 2 entertainment "features" Afterparty with.....Tonight should be quite the wild ride. Damn shame, I have to be up and out the house before 9am on Saturday....I hope I can drive, let alone stand by morning LMAO

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A year ago today, I became a first-time homeowner! I didn't blog about that process much, if at all, but believe when I say it was an exciting, thrilling, all-encompassing, process that birthed a home that I most enamored with!I look forward to many more years growing into my space and filing it with the love of family and friends. It's everything I wanted in a "starter" home, I suppose. More

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MotivationandInspirationdesperately....Cuz that which covers my thoughts is nothing to talk about. I've got to be led in another direction, by SOMETHING.Anything, at this point.For revitalization purposes, of course.And when I get just a moment of freethinktime, I'll be fleshing out the previous posts' that I've left....hanging...:: More to Come ::..

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Got some filings replaced today, after some 20plus years....I'm numb, my face feels like its sliding off my skull and I am HUNGRY!!!!Mental note: Dental work should be done at the END of the day, after I've eaten and enjoyed ALL my favorite foods.Yogurt, ice cream, and smoothies feel good to the sensitive area, but a sista is STARVING!! So, I'm going to pop one last Tylenol PM and dream of the

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Events of the last week have me questioning the level of HATE apparent in relationships and then I saw this:And I'm literally left speechless.....so let me compose my thoughts and I'll be back to address this place holder...::More to Come::..

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All I can say is may Michael Jackson rest, peacefully. Finally....It's been quite a day. I need a bucket of chicken. Who wants to share?! LOLOLOLOL

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What happened to "am I my brother's keeper?"Y'all gotta help save each other. This ish is ridiculous. Preventable. Irresponsible nonsense. We ALL know better.Lives have been damaged. Needlessly. And all I hear is the same lame excuse -- the 'lil head' made me do it.Really though? REALLY? That's ALL you got?! Wow. Just wow...that's all I can muster in response.BOOKS have been written on

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In the spirit of Number 58, and because I really DO want to knock more of these off the "to-do" list, July will be the month I succeed in crossing one more off the list. And I gather it will be therapeutic in a sense. A retreat, if you will, back into a space I can call my own. I won't promise anything profound, nor mundane, and cannot even promise fully developed thoughts or paragraphs, but a

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When it rains, the skies completely open up. Everything is soaked, drenched and I'm left wondering if there is any precip left to fall?I'z here. Settled, enjoying the solitude. The beach will call to me in la manana, as will the pretty drinks at the tiki bar by the pool.Catching up on my reading. Journaling & blogging. Resting.Massage all my tension, worries, stress awayyyyyyyyy.....If

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I can't call it. Maybe I'm just *sensitive* or perhaps it is passive aggressiveness rearing it's insensitive head. But it has me SCREAMING on the inside, and it is making me ill, as I can't release this externally, but alas my blog, my blog...o neglected blog.Insult/Assault from the "man": He says to me a couple months ago he wants to go on said trip. I tell him I'd go with him, we'd have fun

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When others have been telling us what we both ALREADY KNOW...When WE are already certain, we are preventing ourselves, and each other, from acheiving the potential we both hope and dream and long for....That we need to....LEAVE.EACH.OTHER.ALONEWhat is it that KEEPS us....attached?Entangled?Can't stay away.I've heard that love is love. Doesn't matter that you aren't supposed to be together.But I

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Dedicated to ~ Mr. PerfectAfter one whole quart of brandyLike a daisy, I'm awakeWith no Bromo-Seltzer handyI don't even shakeMen are not a new sensationI've done pretty well I thinkBut this half-pint imitationPut me on the blinkI'm wild again, beguiled againA simpering, whimpering child againBewitched, bothered and bewildered - am ICouldn't sleep and wouldn't sleepWhen love came and told me, I

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"...it is a relationship that I am growing to care about and want to take care of. Can't say I've felt that way in a long time about a relationship with a Black man."Now THAT'S profound!..::More to Come::..

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More like diarrhea of the mouth, just to clear my mind of all that has occurred lately. Also because I have not been blogging and I think blogging.every.day is on my 101 things to do list, for which the time frame is quickly running out, so I probably need to go take a gander at those things I said I would accomplish before the end of September, eh? But I woke up this morning feeling like a blog,

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Unrequited affection.Unrealized potential.I've shed a tear.Karma is a bitch.A few years back I was a brothas piece. Yes, me. It was a strictly dickly affair. Now, he was "reasonably attractive" (I've always wanted to use that phrase LMAO), single, no kids, employed, with his own place and car, got along with his family, non-smoker, educated, yanno....all the things I said I wanted in a man.

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My love tank is fluctuating. I gotta blog this out......The pain of losing/giving up/moving on and realizing it wasn't a friendship after alljuxtaposed with....The joy of finding all your long lost acquaintances from your youthand the fact that at work, spring term always just rubs my emotionsSimultaneously, I guess it can be enough to make a grown woman cry.Enough has been said about the loss.

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Yesterday, I had a moment of clarity around a lyric. I changed my FB status to read that I was: "realizing that "the man's a bad decision" is not quite the same as the "demands of bad decisions".... Selah!"Having LOVED this song from the moment I first heard it on some movie soundtrack (somebody help me out here, cuz I surely have forgotten WHICH flick LOL), I was always perplexed by a

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Am I overwhelmed? Nah, not yet, but the feeling is approaching, if that makes sense.I've prayed about this and I am engaged in a process to reposition myself, yes. Things are HAPPENING and I suppose it is only natural to feel like it is all more than I can handle, no?I am fond of saying I have the utmost confidence in my students, so I should have that same confidence in myself. So this really

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"Most circumstances, I know my fateBut in this love thang, I don't get the game.Why does it feel like those who give in,They only wind up losing a friend?. . . :: . . .Why do we love Love,When Love seems to hate us?"The question has crossed my mind more than I care to admit lately. I have to wonder, especially when I consider it's been over a decade since I was last in.love. Over a decade since

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All the years of loneliness Came crashing down on me But like a storm that's just been building up Too long.... When I look inside to find me There was no one there to guide me And I'm tired, tired of trying so hard To be strong...I need, I need, I need The comfort of a man... I need, I need, I need The comfort of a man Nothing understands Like the comfort of a man... Don't you think it's

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My Five Bold Steps -- 2009 Edition.I'm still crafting a succinct version of my vision statement, although the vision circles are completed. I've added another support and another step, and I'll likely add a value or challenge or two as this continues to be tweaked.I feel confident in my vision circles, however, so I can firmly say that these are the things I am aiming for in the next 5 years.To

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Two years ago, I created my initial 101 Things to do in 1001 days list, and I'm charting my progress as I enter the final stretch.....LIKELY TO FINISH~ For better or worse, I can do all these things. It may cost me, but these are things I'm committed to doing despite the cost. Maybe someone can help me out. Somebody? Anybody?7. Learn to hand dance8. Go to a Frankie Beverly and Maze Concert9.

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Yea, I'm excited about it. Milestones are usually occasions for significant change. It's a motif that's been present in many spheres this year. Personally, my life has changed and will continue to do so over the next year. Such is life. Really, I AM excited about it. Just haven't blogged about it, or much else over the last couple of years. Haven't said much at all. What I have been fond

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So I was searching through my email earlier today for a message about Thanksgiving and since GMAIL doesn't delete a damn thing, I found this email text I sent exactly 2 years ago to the day:Good afternoon! I'm doing just lovely. I am in Atlanta, still. It's growing on me, and things are good. I love my job -- I'm working at *******. I head home to LA for Thanksgiving on tomorrow morning until the

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I'm up early this morning. Before 4:45 to be exact. Like a kid on Christmas. Excited. Anxious. Tired. Who can sleep on this historic day, eh? Sleep later.I'm also, what? Reflective. But that's not a surprise.I think back to elections past that I have had a priviledge to participate in. And yes, my thoughts DO turn to which man I was with, or not with, in thinking about where I was on my life

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it's been so damn long since i posted anything, so damn long since i could create a coherent thought worth typing out, so damn long since.....alas, some milestones are on the horizons and those always serve as an impetus in some regard.i thought i knew what i wanted to "talk/type" about, but the more i thought, the less i typed/talked. stalled. in so many ways.music and lyrics still guide me

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Yes, this brought me to tears.....Makes being in Denver worthwhile!

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I must remember this --"The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it? I the Lord search the heart and examine the mind, to reward a woman according to her conduct, according to what her deeds deserve."..::More to Come::..

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Taken from a place earlier in blogherstory......In celebration of the movie, which comes out this weekend, I've decided to finally ANSWER these questions.I thought about them after a delightful first date last night when the gentleman inquired about the ending of my last "relationship"/encounter and I paused.He then filled that silence with these words: "Isn't anything worth having, worth

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...to be blogging about:Transit...and the new commute.That damn Grey's Anatomy!Summer plans...Dementia and at what point must Jesus CLEAR THE ROAD?!Just how much HAVE I been saying "Jesus, take the wheel?!"Weddings, baby showers, graduations, birthday parties...and I still don't have a date!Inauguration, biatches!Facebook is the devil.Just HOW is all of this being paid for?$58 to fill my gas tank

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I'm coming upon my 5th blogiversary now. My how my thoughts have changed. I'm nowhere nearly as "profound" as I used to be, and when a brief moment of intellectual glory does appear, rarely do I blog about it. I believe it to be a product of where I am in in life. I'm not surrounded by those that stimulate me intellectually, nor, have I made overtures to those that could/do, to engage in "

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10 years ago I came back from Costa Rica to a broken relationship with a man I believed was my future. This morning I woke up with a man that fulfills just about every criteria I believed to be ideal in a life partner, but with all the accoutrements comes the realization that this cannot may not work.Half way to 35 and I still haven't gotten it right. Or it still hasn't appeared to me as so

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I knew it would be a helluva day when I'd had TWO students leave my office in TEARS before 10am!Then.... Legal got involved Board of Regents office was referenced Registrar sent remarks Dean of Students made comments Parents of crier #2 showed up Legal came back, changed their "opinion" School Chair is summoned Student requests where can I study abroad/how can I get an internship/what language

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On my 34th birthday, my best friend pointed out that he has known me for half my life. It's been 17 years since we started college, ya see. That struck me then as profound, for my life can be clearly delineated into before college during/after college. My life as it is today, is so directly a result of college, but what about my upbringing? Moms always questions that I even remember my childhood

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That "this may be reason enough to move back to DC."THIS being, brown babies in the White House.For the first time since I first voted, in the 1992 Presidential Elections, it's not the lesser of two evils and I am ANIMATEDLY EXCITED about politics and have a certifiable case of Election Fever!!I keep talking about going to Denver for the convention....sheeit, it's time to make Inaguration plans,

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...and I feel like singing the ANTHEM:Lift ev'ry voice and sing,Till earth and heaven ring.Ring with the harmonies of Liberty;Let our rejoicing rise,High as the list'ning skies,Let it resound loud as the rolling sea.Sing a song full of the faith that the dark past has taught us,Sing a song full of the hope that the present has brought us;Facing the rising sun of our new day begun,Let us march on

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"Birds flyin' high you know how I feelSun in the sky you know how I feelBreeze driftin' on by you know how I feelIt's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new life for meYeah, its a new dawn....Its a new day.....It's a new life for me.....AND I'M FEELING GOOD"~ Nina SimoneOne month into 2008 and things are good, folks! I should have known. The past couple months have been a whirlwind. But I'm

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Click the Pic

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I should be working. I have a shitload of things to do. But my mind wanders. Can't concentrate on anything for too long. It's my birthday, ya'll....and I should be SO excited I could just spit. I'm trusting my mood will improve in a couple days, but right now, I'm just reflective of this past year, and it doesn't have me in a good place.It has been hard to smile this year, really hard to

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10 RULES FOR THANKSGIVING DINNER AT MY HOUSE 1. Don't get in line asking questions about the food. "Who made the potato salad? Is it egg in there? Are the greens fresh? Is the meat in the greens turkey or pork? Who made the macaroni and cheese? What kind of pie is that? Who made it? Ask one more question and I will punch you in your mouth, knocking out all your fronts so you won’t be

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Every time I witness a loving moment between a father and a young child, I find myself saying "I want one of those." Meaning, that is a SUCH a gift, one I'd be honored to provide, and honored to receive. That of spouse and parent. And to witness the bond of love between my spouse and our child.I said it as recently as this morning, reading the paper online, when I saw this:If she isn't the cutest

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And I'm just not in the right place to verbalize what I'm REALLY thinking so let's take a trip down memory lane:2002 -- for the record, although there is not written evidence of this, I do know for a fact had I been blogging at the time, I'd have blogged about preparations for my first trip to Detroit for the Urban Dour Meet & Greet! 2003 -- I apparently had SO much going on I failed to even

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Michael Vick is a certified dumbass.Juanita Bynum is an opportunist.Thomas Weeks needs to get his story told. Quick!I sit on the other side of the "fence" when it comes to Jena 6. Black folks and their emotions have run with this and I'm not satisfied with the outcome or the "facts" as I've heard them. What I DO know is that parents need to do better raising their children. Why the hell has

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He Didn't Promise Anything, But He Lied About Everything ~ Cautionary Tales.At some point the stories will be shared, released, published. Maybe for some chump change, maybe for theraputic reasons, maybe because of boredom, whatever THAT is....Don't be fooled by the pronouns, the genders are interchangeable, because SHE might could be a fraud, too! This is just my "reminder" in case I forget ha

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Sooo....a proud father is happily snapping pictures at the college graduation of his eldest daughter. She graduated from a fine institute of higher learning some, say 3,000 miles away from home, so this auspicious occasion is attended by many family members and some close friends. Photos, smiles, and more photos.....The proud father returns home and shows off the photos to his co-workers,

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I love mine.I find I'm always touching and feeling mine, kinda like I'm checking to see if they're still there. HA! As if.... Certain times of the month, when they get especially tender or sore, I'm constantly massaging them -- they feel better when they are being held. Sheeiiiitttt, some days I wish I had a personal titty massuer during those times of the month. But that could SO get out. of.

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It doesn't take much. When it comes to marriage, although I really want to believe in it, the truth is, I'm WAY skeptical. And this news doesn't help. I mean, I take a look at my contemporaries and I don't see much to encourage me. Yet, I want to believe in the institution.God knows I do, cuz I'z tired. I want, need a partner, a spouse, someone to carry the load, someone to make me a Proverbs 31

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Since I do meme's on this date annually, let the trend continue: The Saturday 8.sat-8 :: changes.tell us ... when was the last time you changed....1. hairstyle?- wow, has it really been almost 10 years? I've been wearing braids, in various styles and hues for nearly 10 years. WOW! Clearly overdue, which is why things WILL be a changin' come birthday time!!!2. residence?- well, I moved into this

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237.Yes, Virginia, apparently there are at least 237 reasons why humans (at least of the American species) have sex. See for yourself.Any to add to that, perchance?The reasons vary, widely....and I must admit, I was initially amazed at the breadth of the reasons offered."The person caressed me.""Because of a bet.""The person was too physically attractive to resist.""I wanted to be used or

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It's THAT time of year again....The National Black Arts Festival is back ... and I'm about to be up in the mix as much as I can stand it! I'm not volunteering AS much this year, but you'll see me around town at each of the main venues at least once during the duration of the festival.As expected, there is a fabulous lineup of dance, music, film, theatre, visual and literary arts of the African

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Soooo.....The old folks are enroute. Happy Happy Joy Joy. Yea, I'm so happy I could, what? Spit....This time though, the visit is about 5 days -- still, enough time for a field trip, since I'm NOT taking anytime off. Me thinks they'll enjoy getting acquainted with Helen, GA. Afterall, pops has been asking me about the place since he had a timeshare exchange come up. And moms, well, she

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No one can be more glad that the first 6 months of the year are over! Never have I been on such an emotional rollercoaster in my life! All unexpectedly, of course, and I'm just thankful for those milestones, date markers, and what not, that allow for reflection, reconnection....and new beginnings.I've been seeking a word, praying for a sign -- a signal of hope, and things began to come together

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Another thing has come back to me from N'awlins:"Gushing" is definitely a product of direct G-spot stimulation. Research has been conducted and I stand by that claim, personally speaking, of course....So, in addition to my coming to the conclusion that heels over 3 inches are now strictly "come-hither" material, made solely for sexin', I've listed TWO things I learned while at Essence Fest. I

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Don't let there be another excuse...

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"You are the type of woman no man should want to ever let go of…..who in the world let you slip away?"Says Mr. Marshall....Then he let me go.I finally got the explanation, and I saw it coming -- It's not you, it's me....My heart is soooo crushed. I'm not so worried that I won't heal from this -- I'm worried I won't ever be truly open to love and all it's possibilities again. It's the hardening

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I shared these words with one of my favorite men today, and I think they apply to all the FATHERS of the world:For all the influence you have in children's lives, and the lives of those around you, no matter the age....I celebrate you!For the values you teach, the encouragement you give, the dreams you believe, the legacy of love you pass along. The difference you make in your family, your

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cry so much ya skin get dry? Like you done cried all the moisture out your body?My gawd, I cannot.stop.crying -- uncontrollable tears, but damn, why is my sky dry? Not only are my eyes puffy, my eyelids are dry, my cheeks are raw. It's hot and humid outside and my skin is a peeling mess, like it's wintertime around here. I guess Puffs with lotion only does so much, huh?Cry myself awake (yea,

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I make it aloneWhen love is goneStill you made your markHere in my heartOne day I'll fly awayLeave your love to yesterdayWhat more can your love do for meWhen will love be through with meI follow the nightCan't stand the lightWhen will I beginMy life againOne day I'll fly awayLeave your love to yesterdayWhat more can your love do for meWhen will love be through with meWhy live life from dream to

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Them damn Myspace Bulletins....Got this one. Took the liberty of identifying myself for you. In case you weren't clear before, now you should be! Some apply, believe it or not, but the majority don't.Just pick one!If you hate stereotypes and think ppl should just shut up and stop POST THIS. IF YOU DO NOT POST IN 100 SECONDS YOU WILL BE CURSED 4 100 DAYSPick the stereotype that fits you.I'M

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It is THAT season in my life, clearly, so let the bulimia kick in!I swear, all these weddings, bridal showers, and bachelorette parties and bridezillas formerly known as friends.....I do believe I will throw up at least 2,000 times over the next 6-18 months, so I should damn well be able to fit into a dress.Lets not forget the upcoming baby showers for those that have already made their way down

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Oh...and a dinner party with "the fiance'" of the moment....happy happy joy joy!

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Being real with myself, I don't know what the hell I'm waiting for.But I realize it's all tied up in faith. That's all I have these days.I'm tired of crying. My emotions have been on spin for months. Birth control after 30 is no frickin' joke! For the most part, happy tears...but they are getting sadder by the day:We had a grand time over the Mother's Day weekend, but I can look at her and tell

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I REALLY thought I was done with these things. But damnit if I haven't run into them again.The memories, literally painful, of the Brood X have begun to stir with the news that these gawd-awful creatures are popping up in the Chi. Where I will be spending the next 96 hours or so.My family STILL cracks up at the injuries I sustained trying to get out of the way of these things during the first

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Someone sent me this daily devotion today, which struck me as more timely than ever:Expectant Faith by Lindsay Roberts "When a woman becomes pregnant, she says, “I am expecting.” Each time I was pregnant, I couldn’t see inside my body, but I knew that I was expecting a baby. I knew by my faith that God was creating something miraculous inside me, and soon I would have a baby. That’s expectant

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Representative Juanita Millender-McDonald, CA-37US House of RepresentativesShe represented my home district, and I worked for her predecessor. Politics is ALWAYS local, and she was a friend to my family. May hers be comforted during this time as she rests, peacefully.Click her photo to read more....

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My heart goes out to the entire Virgina Tech community -- such a senseless tragedy, and I can't imagine the emotions they are going through, but I pray for a recovery, emotionally, mentally, spiritually for us ALL.....I work on a college campus smack dab in the middle of the fastest growing city in the south. It's an open space; anybody can, and does drive, walk, run through the campus on a daily

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Soooo....I have this Match.com ad up, which is about to expire in a number of days. Had it up for damn near 6 months now -- ask me if I've had a date? Moving right along, sorta. Well, there's this guarantee they offer that if you don't get hooked up while a subscriber you get another 6 months free. Trust me, I'll make my money back, but that's kinda besides the point right now. One of the

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As SOON as I can stop procrasturbating, I'll have a coherent post. About something, perhaps, profound. I promise. LOL @ me!..::More to Come::..

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question of the day: why do people inherently trust me so much? it boggles the mind what people will put in front of me, sometimes....there's sooo many wordsthere's sooo many thoughtsthere's sooo many feelingsthat I've got to express and I just can't figure out how to do it. but i must give a public thank you to mr. marshall for the SEVERE case of "dimpleitis" that i've been stricken with.

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I'm feeling somewhere between this....and this..... And damn if it's only a week into March! This is starting out to be one helluva month, whew!And gawd I wish it wasn't the brothas causing grief. But I just don't have any room in my world for insecurity, immaturity, baby momma drama, lack of backbone, or inability to be a MAN about it! Whatever IT is. The brothas have put.me.through.it.this week

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"It is possible for a kid from East Texas, raised in South Central L.A. and Carson who believes in his dreams, commits himself to them with his heart, to touch them and to have them happen."- Who knew?Clearly, I wasn't in the know. I've got to find out WHEN he was in Carson and just what "set he's from?" *giggle*Congrats to Jennifer Hudson as well....

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No, I am not putting those pics back up, but since THIS is who y'all are looking for.....Enjoy the view! And thanks for stopping by.....

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Truly I do, because they are sooooo entirely fabulous! They do such amazing and wonderful things! I just love hearing all about it and rejoice in their accomplishments, like:Being featured in ad campaigns to highlight new curriculum plans in the city-wide school districtBeing appointed to head targeted constituent services in a new city administrationCreating new volunteer programs in Dubai --

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The commercials this year, bleh bleh bleh....Outside of the, "click the mouse" Blockbuster commerical, the first Bud Light commercial where ol' boy smacked him in the forehead after the count of 3, and the various Career Builder commericals, I didn't laugh out loud much.Tank Johnson has been arrested 3 times, and he's GOING to be charged a 4th time, so he might as well put all them weapons to

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