INvisibility

I saw this on PostSecret and saved it. It spoke to my state of mind about dating some 2 years ago. Being invisible in this city of millions. No one seeking me.

But today, I found it, for it speaks to that state of being invisible. Some days I wonder --

if something happened to me, and I was gone tomorrow, would anybody miss me?

Death has been SO prevalent this year and while I've kept it together for a good part of the passings, today I learned of a fellow blogger's that tore at my heart. At work, as I found out the news, I found myself praying and crying, praying and crying, for her youth taken away....and realized how these tears are pent up from the death that has been at our door for the greater part of the summer, of the year.

She wasn't even 40....

I thought about when I found myself in tears at my local Hallmark, earlier this summer, as I was buying a sympathy card for Mr. Perfect, who'd lost his best friend.

He was MY age. Gone, much too soon!

Having known neither of them personally didn't matter -- what struck me was the suddeness, along with their ages. In that sense, it became personal, for I but HIS grace, go I.....

And I thought also of the love expressed AFTER their passing -- did either of them KNOW how they were LOVED in life? That is what makes my heart hurt, so. As invisible as I feel these days, where is the love that would be poured out if I was gone? Why can't I feel that now? Why don't we love well, in the present? It's enough to make me cry....

I pray for their loved ones, that they may be comforted, just as I pray that one day I won't feel so invisble....

..::More to Come::..