Bad Decisions

Yesterday, I had a moment of clarity around a lyric. I changed my FB status to read that I was:

"realizing that "the man's a bad decision" is not quite the same as the "demands of bad decisions".... Selah!"

Having LOVED this song from the moment I first heard it on some movie soundtrack (somebody help me out here, cuz I surely have forgotten WHICH flick LOL), I was always perplexed by a particular line. To me, it just didn't make that much sense. And when I was channeling LBoogie I HAD to be wrong and ain't nothing quite as embarrassing as singing out loud, strong and WRONG LOL. So I googled the lyrics and suddenly it all made MORE sense.

Someone close to me is struggling and her struggles are visible and emotional and she lashes out from time to time in very public arenas. Having never been in her position and because we are so close it is very easy for me to see her side and empathize with her and swear with everything in me that it'll never be me cuz I'm seen it too many times to fall for the same trap. Ha! The man's a bad decision...

However, even all my self-righteous indignation is a lie because I've been in similar situations, perhaps not with all the same accoutrements. And it can be read in the pages of this blog, just as it stains my heart. Granted, I take care not to name names and I fully believe at least 75% of the time readers will have no clue of who I am referring to, but when a woman is fed up, tact and carefulness might not be the actions of the moment. So her pain was blasted for all to see, and then came the response, from the intended target. The demands of bad decisions...

Something I picked up in my attempt to Reposition Myself is that the decisions one makes affects all those around you, to paraphrase. Jakes uses the analogy of the truck driver to explain how careful thought, a plan or a strategy, must be in place in order for the driver to make safe passage for her/himself and those valuable she/her is transporting, the attachments, if you will. That decisions made in haste, to switch lanes, for instance, can be deadly, detrimental to the driver and/or the load being carried. Consider them bad, decisions that is, that may lead to chain reactions, influences that trigger...demands.

In the end it's all about discipline and self-control. For the driver, for self. So that which surrounds you will be safe.

Oh please save me from myself
I need you to save me from myself
Please save me from myself
So I can heal......


..::More to Come::..
Song of the Day: "Selah" by Lauryn Hill